You are constantly worrying. You no longer live the life of a care-free child that welcomes each sunrise. You close the blinds, shut the lights off and build up walls on crumbling foundation. You lock the doors and pretend no one is home. Excuse me, you pretend no one lives in this house. Because home is a place where love thrives, it seeps through the cracks of the walls and you kicked it out months ago. But his smell still lingers on your coat you no longer wear. And you don’t wash your hair with that one shampoo because he borrowed it one day and you only remember burying your face in while he kissed your neck. Please open the doors back up. You can change the locks but don’t lie on that cold hardwood floor waiting for someone to pick you up. Turn on the lights and open the blinds. Let the sunrise dance on your skin when you stretch out of bed. Make new memories in this vessel, skip down the halls to your favorite song, waltz into the bathroom like you’re getting ready for a ball. Tell yourself you’re beautiful and that you love that little smirk you make. I can’t really tell you how to fall out love because I don’t think that’s possible. But I can tell you deserve to love yourself more than what you’re doing. You deserve to smile when you please, you deserve to put on your favorite shirt, you deserve to do things for yourself and be selfish. Be selfish with your time but never with your love. Love always.